05/09/2005: "Reflections on Sunday's readings"

I didn't make it to Mass on Sunday and I don't have a very good excuse. I had the opportunity to go to either the 8:30 AM Mass or the 5:15 PM Mass but went to neither. God forgive me!

Today I write as a humble man who knows and have always known that I am frequently a failure in my following Christ. I frequently don't hand my life over to God like I should. There are certain sins, serious sins and not just missing Mass, that I, despite knowing their sinfulness, continue to repeat. In addition there are actions I am called to as a follower of Christ that I fail to do.

So today I find myself gro... stinking... how do you spell groaping? I know that isn't right. Oh, drop the 'a'...

As I was saying, today I find myself groping through Sunday's reading looking for redemption. I'm crying out looking for God's mercy in the readings. I am groping to find God because I feel so far from Him. And as always, He is there in Scripture. Christ tells us that eternal life is "that they should know you, the only true God, and the one whom you sent, Jesus Christ." With those words I know what I must do: I must go to Church and to confession to receive the special forgiving graces promised to us in that Sacrament. Then I must receive God in the Holy Eurcharist.

What better way is there to know God than to be in His presence?

Lord, I am not willing to receive you... but only say the words and I shall be healed.